Jan 17 2008 09:50 pm
well my memorise of fergy well the main one was when we used to play football in he shopsquare he was allways the skillfullist player out of us all. one main thing i would like you two know fergy is that am sori 4 not seeing you since wi left school because a moved to halifax en i realy wish i had a chance to see you that one last time. you will allways b remembered fergy no matter wot. sleep forever in peace. liam holroyd (oli)
Dec 5 2007 01:29 pm
well carl,
20 years ago today you went to your first ever wedding, your nanna and grandads, you were only 6 months old.
dont think i saw you for much of the day, my cousin cheryl just wouldn't put you down, u had your party hat on and your blower you looked so cute.
your grandad gave me the camerea to take photos at the wedding and they had a cheap deal on and they did copys of the full set for bout 50p so your grandad ordered a load for a thank you gift for all the guests, only thing was when they got the pics back that half of them were of you lol
even when you were alive i would talk to you on this day bout how cute you looked and bring out the photos, u never used to go mad and get me to put them away, i think thats coz u knew how cute you were as a baby.
everybody loved you then carl as they still do now.
i will never forget the first wedding you went to and i think that nanna and grandad will be thinking of you today as they celebrate 20 yrs of marriage in tunisia.
love you always and forever my cute little man.
love mum. xxxxxxxxxxx
Jun 23 2007 06:07 pm
well 20 years ago today i never ever thought i would be doing this, writing my memories on a memorial page for my darling son carl.
this day 20 years ago was a tuesday and it will of just been coming up to visiting time at pontefract maternity. i'd had loads of visitors all day, but i didn't have my baby by my side.
carl was in special care baby unit, nothing to worry about, but he was very sleepy. (mind you that was one thing that never changed) lol
i remember it was a very emotional day. you were born at 05.53, so you were just over 12 hours old at the time i write this 20 years later. the gifts you had were unbelievable. aunty paula came to visit you. she had only recently found out she was pregnant with our david and carol who i used to work with in the butchers, she came and she was pregnant also with adam, both sets of grandparents were there, aunty's uncles and cousins all asking when they could go see you, nobody that botherd bout me, well y should they be when you my beautiful baby was waiting to be spoilt.
i must admit it was nice when they had all gone, it had been a busy day. the nurses brought me to you coz you were due a feed and you should ov seen me trying to breast feed you. even though full of milk i didnt really have a big pair of boobs, but we got there in the end, that was the 1st time i had fed you as you had been asleep all day. (lazy bugger) just you and i together and a nurse showing me what to do. it felt so right that you and i were alone together, able to bond, and that bond lasted throughout your whole life. through ups and downs, and by god were there a few.
a mothers bond with her child can never ever be broken, and 20 yrs on i still feel that way.
i know you are no longer here with me, but i have all these beautiful memories that will never fade. never.
i love you carl with all my heart, and that will never fade either.
happy 20th birthday son.
love you loads mum. xxxxxxxxxxx
May 26 2007 12:13 pm
we were in most of carls classes at school,we`ve got plenty of memories of carl and in everyone he was making us smile,Carl was always up for a laugh,even after we left school he used to put a smile on our faces, up town avin a drink n a dance !! cant belive its been over a year since we lost him ,we misses him loads, n always thinking of him! Love ya loads Fergy xxxxxxx
Apr 26 2007 03:25 pm
Hi carl its micia! im really sorry i havent wrote for along time! it wasnt intentional though m8! i still look at your foto on my mirror and think of you and how we used to be twats with each other! everyone still thinks about you and that will never stop happening!! PROMISE!! well i think your mum and dad and all the rest of the family are coping really well with the whole ordeal, i think thats really brave of them and as far as im concernd, we will never ever stop caring about you! im sat here writing this ya no n i can feel myself watering up...lump in my throat...wobbly chin! its all for you though m8!! once again id like to say your family are so brave n we will never ever forget you!! love you loads and loads!! luv always micia - rae!! x x x x x good nite god bless x x x x x x x x x x x x x R.I.P x x x x x x x x x
Apr 13 2007 01:36 pm
Valerie Malcolm (Aunt)
One of my fondest memories of Carl was on the day of my wedding to Carl's Uncle Dave, 19th October 1991.
As I was walking to the alter to get married, I could hear Carl along with his Cousin David (who were pageboys that day) talking about the officiating minister.
David was saying that the Vicar was God, and Carl was arguing that the Vicar was not God, but Jesus (the Vicar had a beard)!
As the service started, I could hear this conversation going on and on - getting louder and louder! it got to the point that me and Dave were giggling and the Vicar couldn't understand why we were. Carl was saying "It's Jesus - he has a beard!" and David was replying that he knew it was God and not Jesus.
As we started to say our Vows, I heard Carl shout at David really loudly "It's not God - its Fu***ng Jesus All Right!" we all creased up - even the Vicar!, but nobody else was aware of what had happened, I remember looking around and seeing Carl's face screwed up in anger and I thought it was so funny.
Fond memories like those will stay in my heart forever, to help me remember you by. Love you now and always Wee Darling,
Love you
Aunty Val xxx
Apr 11 2007 11:29 pm
dawn ferguson,
well this time today i was celebrating my 21st birthday, was 7 months pregnant with carl and had finished work in the butchers to go on maternity leave. I used to have a few beers when pregnant, but on my 21st our carl wouldnt let me have anything, i kept feeling sick.
Everybody had asked me what i wanted for my birthday. I didnt want anything for myself but just asked that people bought things for the baby (i didnt know what i was having)
as i went to leave work at 5pm i was given my presents now 3 (are we on about now 80 odd now lol) and the most beautiful christening gown ever. well it was to me and a huge bouquet of flowers. they had spent so much money on me considering there were only 5 of us who worked there, it was very emotional leaving a job i had done for 5 and a half years.
Then when i got home more tears the house was all decorated food had been laid on and a very nice cake had been made for me then my mam and dad took me into the living room and i couldnt believe my eyes i had asked for a moses basket, but instead there was this huge wooden rocking cradle with a teddy in it and a huge basket of red roses. we had a bus coming and went to some club that had just opened up. not too busy as i was rather large by this time, but very energetic i sailed through the pregnancy no probs at all. The day was lovely filled with tears and emotions but all happy thoughts couldnt wait for carl to be born.
i used to sit and think how old my baby would be when i was 40, and knew that he or she would be nearly 19 and we could all go out together.
that never happened, my 40th birthday last year was much the same as my birthday today, tears, heartache and a sense of lonliness, that my baby boy was not with me.
20 years on im crying but not with happiness as i should be but with great sadness and grief and the thought that i dont want to see anybody and just lock myself away from my family and friends.
so all who visited today please do not be offended it just my way of dealing with things, and im sorry.
i've had a crap birthday and there is only one person who could of made me happy and i'm sorry but as with xmas i will never celebrate either again.
hope you all understand.
dawn (carls mam)
Apr 11 2007 10:47 pm
dawn ferguson
Sophie i remember that day too. It was a lovely day and i know that you all had a good time there, and if i remember rightly we had the bbq on the night.
It was lovely to see you all i had never met you or thomas all i had done was talk to you on the phone and had lots of photographs.
i remember how shy you were with our carl, but by the time you left to go home you were great mates.
thank you so much for putting your memories on here and thank you so much for my e-birthday card. sorry i havent phoned i been in bed all day, no point in getting up.
love you loads, and kisses to tom, and your mum and dad. with love auntie dawn. xxxxxxxxxxxx
Apr 12 2007 10:25 am
Sophie Malcolm
The only real memory I have of me and Carl was when I first met him when I was 7. I just about remember the day in the pub beside the travel inn outside Pontefract. That day there was sum person painting kids faces and me and Carl had ours done. I ended up looking like a dimented Bunny whereas Carl's Leeds badge wuz perfect!
I look back on that day when i see the photo of me and Carl like that.
That was sort of pointless but, hey!
Love u loads!
xxxx
Apr 4 2007 12:07 pm
Sophie Malcolm (cousin)
I didn't know where else toowrite this so...
To Fergy...
This time last year I was probally getting ready too come back to Northern Ireland from your funeral. I was really annoyed that I never got to know you as welll as everyone else did and i am jelous of everyone who did get to know you, of people who got to spend time with you.
Last year I kept asking mum and dad to go over to England that summer, but i knew we wouldn't, so i kept thinking to myself that there was always next year. I could then go and spend time with the whole family, but what I didn't know was that by next year you wouldn't be there.
The morning I found out I was so upset and so shocked that i couldn't cry. I wanted to but I felt as if I had to be strong for mum and dad. Your death took a great toll on me. As I type this tears blind me so much that i can't see the keyboard properly.
Every month that passes I change my calendar, and every month i replace the picture for each month with your picture.
We are saving up to go to England this summer. I even passed up the opertunity to go to Germany just to spend time with the family because I now know that they may not be a next year.
Love you so much...
Sophie
xxxxxx
Mar 17 2007 11:53 pm
As I sit here reading all the messages on rememberingfergy this evening, I can't help but remember the time me and Val spent when Carl used to stay with us in our flat in Redmayne Grove. I was working nights in the Heron Garage on the A1 by Mastercraft, and I used to have a wee Kawasaki motorbike. Whenever Carl stayed, he used to want to ride it.
'You're too small for it Carl' we used to say, but that wasn't good enough for Carl. 'I'll grow into it'! he would reply 'You'll fall off and hurt yourself' Val would say, and Carl would say 'Don't worry Aunty Val, I put Uncle Dave's helmet on'!!!
Carl had an answer for everything and if he was staying, and I had to go to the shops or something, he would stand there at the front door, and cry until I got back. He would go on and on...and on..... and on until he got onto the wee Motorbike with me and have a wee ride round the car park. 'I'll drive it' he'd say as I sat him on the petrol tank and he would reach forward as far as he could go to reach the handlebars, and afterwards - even though he had only travelled about 100 metres, his day would be made. He felt such a big boy for having been on that motorbike. He didn't complain, he was a cheeky wee lad, and if he stepped out of line, all he had to do was look at you with those beautiful eyes and all would be forgiven. It was a pleasure to have known Carl, he gave us so much joy when he and David stayed with us. and as I sit here on the eve of Carl's first anniversary, my emotions are mixed. I am sad that he is no longer with us, I am angry that he was taken too soon before he had a chance to fufil all his ambitions, but I also can't forget the happy fun times too, and it is those thoughts I grip hold of dearly. Everyone who ever knew Carl will know what I'm talking about, Dawn told a friend yesterday, " You have the most precious gift of all - Memories" and that is so true, I would rather have all those memories than never have known Carl at all. He enriched my life, he was a typical boy, and the last time I spoke to him, I heard the man inside the boy I knew, and I was so proud.
We will never forget you Carl, we will carry you in our hearts until our dying days, and we will do our very best to ensure that no more Families suffer such a senseless bereavement.
Gone too soon, but never forgotten,
All our love
Uncle Dave, Aunty Val & Cousins Sophie & Wee Thomas xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Mar 17 2007 08:48 pm
this time last year carl was getting ready to go up town with his mate shaun, i dont fully know how carl spent his night, but i do know that he met up with nat and her friends in kikos in pontefract at around midnight, and at around 3am she said you just disappeared, she was the last person to text you and said thanks for saying bye and asking where he was. carl never text back. nat was the one who sent me a photo that she took of carl in kikos one year ago today. this is the last picture that anybody took of my precious son, it will stay with me forever. just hope that he had the best night ever b4 he accepted a lift from somebody unaware that he had drunk 4 pints and 5 bottles of beer, and was so cruelly taken from us by somebody who drove careless and was nearly twice over the legal alcohol limit. the way i feel today i have to say that i wish it had of been the driver who had been killed and not my boy. Goodnight god bless mummys little boy (he used to go mad when i said that) loved always mum. xxxxx
Mar 16 2007 04:25 pm
this day last year carl frday 17th march as it was then was the last time i spoke to you. nag nag nag was all you got and all you did was say yeah yeah yeah mother in your own cheeky way, altho you tormented the hell out of me i would never ever wish that you would of been taken from us so tragically. the person responsible is today behind bars and able to lead some sort of a life where as you have none. miss you so very much carl, and i just hope that you are with me this weekend to get us all through missing you loads and loads and never ever will you be outa my mind. love you sweetheart. mum xxx
Mar 7 2007 11:09 pm
fergy its holly! u mite nt rememba bt i defantly can, can u rememba wen u learnt me how 2 play snakes nd ladders coz i cn nd i bet u lol!nd wen i woz follwing u nd r esher nd i wouldnt gu so u let me cum wit u nd u held 1 of mi hand nd r esher held da uva nd u used 2 swing mme up nd darn! i defantly can!doze days were da best bt we carnt do dat no more!there were mani more bt wurds carnt describe how gd den moments were nd dey ave always gt a place in mi heart nd so ave YOU!i luff u more den words can discribe luvya hun bye for now rest. in. peace xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Feb 13 2007 11:56 pm
carl its mum. this day last year we had a massive row. over something and nothing really, but i remember sending u that valentine flower. wen i got your phone bak from the police it was saved in your in box. that touched me. wot is so upsetting now is that i can not do the same this year, and neither can stacey. these are all memories that i have of you. aparently you were fostered as a child but as you know that never ever happend, unless i had severe memory loss which i do not think so. carl you are so special to me and to think that in 5 mins time is valentines day and there is nothing i can do for you apart from place flowers at your grave is killing me. love you so much mum. xxxx
Feb 8 2007 07:53 am
carl. the last xmas u spent with me woz 2005 u went up town with ya mates n u woke me up saying u were badly i wil neva forget rm 1 in a@e xmas day u thought u ad been drugged. tests proved you had not. all u wanted to do woz av a cuddle n go to bed n we abandoned xmas, little did i know that it would be the last xmas i spent with you i will neva get over you, you must know that. so many memories i could write a book, love you carl always n foreva, mum.
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Jan 19 2007 10:39 pm
this poem is from us two you you were always a good lad but cheeky at times you will always be in are hearts and never be forgotten .
go saw you getting tierd
it was not meant to be
so he put his arms around you and whispered come with me.
with broken hearts w loved you as we heared you had been taken away although we loved you deeply we could not make you stay
your golden hearts stopped beating hard your hard working hand at rest
god broke our hearts to prove he only takes the BEST
XxXr.i.pXxXcarl(fergy)from ashley moffit,jodie seniour and holly lamb
Dec 15 2006 12:13 pm
hiya carl its ony micia agen!, i forgot to leave my name after i wrote your poem! im very sad that you have gone and will never be able to say 'ey-up' or 'c-ya later m8'. i dont think i have felt so sad in all my life. we were only friends i know but we did have them times when we wo 2geva as girlfriend and boyfriend. those times were crazy. all we did was fight. ha! but wen we wasnt fightin yo would make me tickle your back for at least an hour! ha .! also , can you remember wen me u ur erri and jade went on the milk rob,ha,and coppers got us and they thought we wo gunna rob the doctors. ha ha ha! you ran straight past me down the cannal and nearly threw me in it coz u wanted to be infront! they still got u tho dint they! .......... well i wish we could still share times like that ! we had sum real fun dint we !!! i am always on this website looking at your guestbook, i dunt think you realised ho many people love and respect you m8 i really dont! theres loadz! i will never 4get you carl and i still kiss your foto 2 this day which sits on my mirror! lotz ov luv and kisses babe lv alwayz micia! r.i.p x x x x x x x x x x
Dec 7 2006 04:13 pm
Carl ferguson my friend,
in my soul in my mind,
no matter where you are, there is happiness yet to find.
we know that what happend,
will never change or go away,
but we love you no matter what,
and you are with us each day.
the way that it happened,
has got to be the worst,
but you have made everyone realise,
that thinking comes first.
from your friends and family,
we miss you greatly, we dream of you at night,
and think of you daily!!!!
Sep 29 2006 02:54 pm
Fergy i´ll never forget the day you died i had been on nights at work and when i got up the next day our Adam came in and said you had been killed in a car crash but,i didn´t want to believe it so i tried to ring you but your phone was off, so then i put the radio and tv on to listen for the news but still i heard nothing so my mum said i would have to go to your dad´s house to find out for sure. When i got to your house and seen all your family in the room it hit me that i was never going to see you again or talk to you again and i broke down and cried myself dry i didn´t know what i was going to do without you because for nineteen years you were always there and i never thought that would change. It has been six months now but it hasn´t got any easier i still have a little cry every now and then when something reminds me of you, i´ll never forget you mate and i´ll always love and miss you, your best friend Lee Ward.
Sep 18 2006 11:58 am
i was so sad to hear that fergy had gone. i had some rite laughs with him. he always had me in stitches. we uset to go to racca green for our dinners and buy the famos school special. u could garantee that we would be at least 5 mins late for our last lesson becouse we would mess about on the way bak. R.I.P fergy mate... miss you loads lauren xxx
Sep 15 2006 02:29 pm
well time passes by as we all know but i never assumed it would pass by so quickly! it's been exactly 6 months to the day that i last saw carl and what memories to have as last ones eh? we had a great night out in town and caught up on the past few months of each others lives as it had been a while since we saw each other. we danced and sang and drank until we could drink no more and went onto water! that night carl opened his heart out to me and said he'd got himself a new girlfriend who he loved and things were finally looking up for him! as the night ended we said out goodbyes and he told me to take care and look after myself, if only he'd taken the tip himself i wouldn't be here writing this. it's so unfortunate how that night ended when it all started so well!
i had known carl for a lot of years from being tots, he was a good friend of my brother, martin, and hung around from such a young age to his later days but were always very close. we used to go to watch featherstone rovers every sunday religiously without fail and every friday we used to hang around the old s.y.d. club, be rogues and get blind drunk on wine or cider, under age of course but hey, who doesn't do it?
i have lots and lots of very happy memories with carl and will never forget our days together, he was such a dear friend who cared for and trusted in everyone. my thoughts are with his family and the rest of his friends. may the lord be with you carl, rest in peace! love always, kate evans xxx.
Sep 14 2006 06:58 pm
fergy R.I.P mate.
i probably didnt know fergy as well as some. i met fergy at red lion in ponte when they did the under 18's night then it moved on to big fellas, he and hes mates used to meet me and my mates there, fergy was such a laugh making us all laugh. when they stopped doing the under 18's night we only saw them a few times after but what a laugh we had. after this we all lost touch with them which was a shame they probably didnt remember us after a few years.
all i want to say is we remembered him and how much he made us laugh! rest in peace mate! luv rach
